I've been searching for a quote to start this entry. Lots of them came to mind focusing on things like dealing with the unexpected, courage under duress, all that kind of jazz. Ultimately though, it comes down to something simpler, this from Aesop:
Slow and steady wins the race
That is what I have to bear in mind over the coming weeks.
Regular readers will know what my plans were for this year and what events I was training for. It has all been thrown into disarray by a serious bout of illness. I am now (finally!) back resting at home but I will have a long road back to regain my previous levels of fitness. I am not allowed to train at all for at least another two weeks and truthfully, I am okay with that. I have constant fatigue and I know that right now, I'm not capable of any kind of exertion. Getting dressed would be a big ask, actually moving at speed an impossibility! The only tasks I have assigned myself for the immediate future are a) getting as much rest as I can and b) putting back on the weight I've lost while ill. I'm down to 49kg and at 5ft 7, that is not a good look. I need to recharge and rebuild. I'm making no decisions yet about the events I've entered. I'll need to just wait and see how I progress.
I am not very good at being patient with myself but I am lucky enough to have plenty of friends who have no problem telling me when I'm being ridiculous and trying to get ahead of myself. For once in my life, I should probably just sit my ass down and take the telling (and let them make the most of it because it will all come to an abrupt end as soon as I'm better!)
I want to say thank you for the support that I've received. I am not a good patient and truthfully, this whole experience has shaken me quite badly. It's not that I'm exactly embarassed about what's happened but it doesn't sit very comfortably with me. Being weak and having to lean on other people is hard and my instinct is just to keep my head down and hide away so I don't have to deal with it. So thank you to those who were unwilling to put up with my avoidant BS and continued to reach out and support me. It means a lot and I appreciate it very much indeed. But you do know that you will be repaid by my hectoring you into doing horrible challenges as soon as I'm better, right?
